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Am I the one?

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Jack n Mary just gave birth to a healthy little boy, their first child.  Nick n Anna are moving in together, Kat n Peter are planning to have a baby, you know Vicky already has kids, Nichol n Faith moved in with their boyfriends  as well and in October I’m attending a wedding.  Everywhere I turn I see couples, babies n weddings.

I never thought I would want to get married.  I’ve had 3 long relationships till now and with noone did I ever dreamed of a family, not even the white dress moved me.  Today I  count 2 years with my man, who we live together n I’m dying for him to fall to his knees.  Though we’ve talked about us getting married, I thought with all our friends taking a step further would affect him.  So when in Rome I waited for a Valentine’s confession, when in Mallorca I hoped for the perfect birthday gift and when everyone wishes us for marriage I’m waiting for the look.

What bothers me is brainwashing, yes brainwashing.  In the past I wouldn’t trouble my mind, but now friends n family are like all over me, trying to make me feel guilty of being unmarried, with no kids.  I am 29 after all plus I’m not getting any younger.  So I can’t stop thinking about it and I’m looking forward to a proposal.  Am I going mad here or what?

I know my man has financial difficulties, this is clearly our biggest obstacle.  But isn’t there any way he could understand that money will always be a problem?  We are not getting any richer too.  Plus I don’t want a big fat greek wedding, I’m ok with a cheap bahamian one….Sometimes it even crosses my mind “I’m not the one”.