Jack n Mary just gave birth to a healthy little boy, their first child. Nick n Anna are moving in together, Kat n Peter are planning to have a baby, you know Vicky already has kids, Nichol n Faith moved in with their boyfriends as well and in October I’m attending a wedding. Everywhere I turn I see couples, babies n weddings.
I never thought I would want to get married. I’ve had 3 long relationships till now and with noone did I ever dreamed of a family, not even the white dress moved me. Today I count 2 years with my man, who we live together n I’m dying for him to fall to his knees. Though we’ve talked about us getting married, I thought with all our friends taking a step further would affect him. So when in Rome I waited for a Valentine’s confession, when in Mallorca I hoped for the perfect birthday gift and when everyone wishes us for marriage I’m waiting for the look.
What bothers me is brainwashing, yes brainwashing. In the past I wouldn’t trouble my mind, but now friends n family are like all over me, trying to make me feel guilty of being unmarried, with no kids. I am 29 after all plus I’m not getting any younger. So I can’t stop thinking about it and I’m looking forward to a proposal. Am I going mad here or what?
I know my man has financial difficulties, this is clearly our biggest obstacle. But isn’t there any way he could understand that money will always be a problem? We are not getting any richer too. Plus I don’t want a big fat greek wedding, I’m ok with a cheap bahamian one….Sometimes it even crosses my mind “I’m not the one”.